I love the jealousy that induced by very very small stuff.
I love the smile that's on the face of its owner
I love the good-night calls
I love the way this thing works in me
I love talking about it over and over again
and. I love him so goddamn much.

fuck . it feels like my head gon burst literally if I stuff anymore chem's stuffs into it. a-maths's a nightmare, im gon flunk it. a 60 year-old man gon be my a,e -maths tutor soon, but first I have to call him. yeah me, I cant ask my bro to do it, let alone anyone, I mean Im old enough to do this aint it. I cant be so dependent.

whats up with this world. My surrounding doesnt seem friendly. or maybe its just me who is so temperamental. sometimes all I want to do is kick someone's ass and shout ' DIE BITCH '. and how lame can I get. by only kicking someone's ass, you cant kill 'em.so after giving it a2nd thought, Ive decided to just throw knives at 'em. so its like.
sometimes all I want to do is throw knives at people around me and shout ' DIE MUTHAFREAKERS '.
ah fuck me.

and I hate current weather so goddamn much. the freaking rain stops the minute I step into my house. like WHUDDA.

argh. what the hell am I doing. Im supposed to be sleeping after hours of digesting chem.
and tomorrow Im having PE. it wont be that bad. I wont die. I just have to go thru it.

How would you feel if someone, who had left you and your clique since ages ago, suddenly out of freaking nowhere popped her freaking butt out and she just couldnt keep her oh-what-the-hell nose to whats only hers, and you're allegedly accused for being someone who 'pang sei' your clique by that ms nearly-lost-in-touch ?

If I was her, I wouldnt even think of coming back to my clique if I havent talk to 'em for ages, so long that I couldnt even remember whens the last time I did. I mean, I dont have the face to. its like turning up for your cca that you'd never attend for such a looongg time that you even forget who are who.

I remembered someone saying that we shall go for recess together when shes the one who , FOR 3 freaking months, didnt even meet up with us during recess and let alone after school.

see how hypocrite she is. TSK.

difference of overslept and sleepy.

overslept is genuinely sleeping without opening any of your eyes. or maybe you did, but you didnt even notice it. you thought you're still in your la-la land and nth wrong with that ( when actually theres a BIG one )and next time you open your eyes, it will be still o6.o5 am. and you'd do the same old shit you do every mornng before you take 136 or 62.
Sleepy is your eyes are squinting and you have no mood to get up from your bed. but you are perfectly capable of realising that you have already wake up, and you'd be late to take 136 or 62 if you stay on the bed any longer. but you are SLEEPY. your head is whirling. hence you decided to fuck-care about school, and take a day off ( when its like the 3rd of the week you skip ) .

and today. for the 1st time of the YEAR 2006. Im overslept. fuck it. today im having POA. and Amaths. I can forget about mother tongue. ARGH. and that mdm cheah of mine taught the class a new thing. like WHAT THE FUCK. why didnt she come to do so yesterday. ARGH. so I guess I will stayback tomorrow for POA. then maybe another for chem. you dont know how desperate I am to pass my POA. I NEED A TUTOR.

ladies and gentlemen, I give you * drum roll *

TONO MATHERS. oh. hes so adorable. he bites. gees.
meet my new love

fuh. im so free that I've decided to update my blog eventhough I have nothing to write.
not that Im busy on weekends, trust me, its no better than this.
but the thought of its weekend now, made me too lazy to even lift a finger of mine to flip a page of any textbooks.

my love is at some mosque. hes attending some debate thingy which Im least interested in watching. I'll just give them some morale support. ya know, like pray for 'em or something.

hailey is participating at some so-called amazing race. she called me just now. asked for some direction. kidding. she called me cause she said she's bored and it was so hot. not like its not now. so you see people, when u guys are bored and just have nothing better to do, or maybe you have like flip those dusty pages of your textbooks but seems that it takes so much energy to lift that finger of yours , call me up. but Im not saying I 'll pick that up. cause I dont like talking on the phone, my phone sucks, I cant hear a thing you saying smoothly. but just do.

dionne is online now. and Im chatting with her. shes going cycling with hailey later on. see how much energy hailey has to do such stuffs ? gess. a mere thought of cycling under the hot sun already makes me want to jump into the swimming pool, but poor thing, I cant swim. Im waiting for hailey to teach me. they're going to serangoon garden, and not fooling around, they gon study there. while Im at home. yea as if I will.

brudder is playing guitar in his cubicle. cant hear what song hes playing. hes wearing a black shirt today. and he just got his toes sprained? I dunno. he has problems walking two days ago, hence he settled on this black chair for the whole day on that day. ya know, watching anime or reading some japanase comics. its endless n ceaseless.

who else ..

joanne. shes with jolene right now. they off to bugis. of course they do have some courtesy to ask me along. but I just went there yesterday. and I spent $30. yeah. thirty. and not hundred. Im getting sick of clothes you see. BAH I LIED. which girl is sick of nicey clothes. its just that Im adapting this new habit of not spending too much money on some clothes that look ncie but doesnt on me. and my eyes really need some rest . so I guess that means Im gon sleep after I clicked 'publish post'.

jolene. shes with joanne. she called me when they're at hougang and in 80. they probably now reached bugis already.

bernice. shes online. and she just replied my 'HEY' with ' hey =)'. and I dont know what to reply. you see, bernice is always smiling, or at least her face looks like smiley-face all the time. and I envy her for that. my face freaks people out, they think that Im some kind of Im-gon-bite-your-toot-off-if-u-say-something-to-me typa' person. and people Im not. you just cant smile all the time aint it. and in the morning. Im always too lazy to smile. lessons aint exhilirating. the thought of being taught in class for hours make my energy disappear into thin air already.

who else.

jai. shes in aus right now. Im chatting with her.. .

ermm.

me. Im typing this while listening to usher's burn. my neck is aching cause I have to look up to see whether theres any typo error or not. I just read that museum-of-twits.blogspot.com. trust me, its so freakingly funny. made by some kind of bo liao people, and read by another bo liao. so if you are bo liao, read that. it kills time. what else. just received a sms from hailey. she said she miss me. who doesnt ? lmao. I kid. anyway yesterday, I saw him. him as in some guy who I dont wanna reveal his identity as I dont want nobody to think that I still bother about him when in fact I dont, and not him as in some guy whos special to me that I dont wanna write his name down as I dont want nobody to know that hes special. I recognized its him from the opp of the road alread. and I was praying that he wont cross the road. but how dumb can I get. its friday. so i moved from my then spot to another.

aite . thats all. no one else. <3

previous post.
the 6th. change it to the 1st.
haha. <3

I love 3ec
I love my form cher.
I love hailey and dionne.
I love airgee, bernice, ms, jasmine, serene, ivy, yulin, surinah, yau, jannah,athirah and all of 'em.
I love joanne.
I love mushroom.
I love eminem
I love my family
I love my brother
I love laughing
I love smiling
I love shopping, as much as I love studying. literally.
I love eminem.
I love my housemate.
I love people that I know.
I love whatever thats mine.
I love living.

an open invitation to any mighty one who sees this :
LETS GO SHOPPING.
love.

oh LORD. i've gone nuts. I brought a pink top. yes fella'. PINK. oh. and joanne's going for darker colour. how beautiful the world is.

ah. I want to eat CAKES. nahhhh.

anyway. I just found out that Im very good at controlling my temper.

so . in case anyone doesnt remember. SCHOOL REOPENS TOMORROW.
burn the midnight. cut that hair. and wake up early tomorrow.
good night.

okay . so its merely a ns-letter to me . but I believe it means a world to my bro and, maybe, some people. yeah. whatever, its not as if it has such a huge impact on me. I guess I will just wish him luck, thats all I can do also anyway isnt it. yeah.
maybe the thought of being in ns really freaks my bro out. He really is out of his mind. he just used up 900 freaking $, for Christ's sake. I mean, well yea, its not my hard-earned money, but he assuaged my weekly allowance. how dumb can he get. and he spent it over some weird square big black thing. we aint some richie, you see. so I mind him spending money like as if you can just pick those shit up on the road.

I regret not burning my midnights for the past few days. I should have done so. but whats the point. I still couldnt get the hang which to put in debit, and which in credit. ah shite.

nites`

wuokay.

went out of the house at 1o.15. yes people. TEN in the morning.
met up with devvin. been a while since the last time I went out with her, like a year or so? yeah. I nearly lost in touch. watched my merely 2nd nc16 movie, and I aint proud of it anyway, date movies. its disgusting but funny though, it doesnt even deserve to be called as a movie, its more like a.. trash ? yea, they took a scene or whatever from any movies then they put in inside of theirs. like what the hell.

then went to far east, and I give you my usual I-spent-more-than-$100 bit. you wouldnt wanna know what I bought. HAHA. eh no no. LMAO.

then met up with love. went to hougang. then home. then yea here I am.

I love my mushroom ` GRIN GRIN

anyway. I wonder whats the point on linking somebody if that somebody's blog requires a you-dont-know-what-is-it password in order to read their entries. reasons that I know for putting a password-required thing : you dont want people know what you're posting, cause maybe you're talking about them ( based on experience). 2nd, you think that you're all that. if you dont want people to know your stuff, you should as well dont tell any freaking one about you having a blog right. yeah. anyway, its not really a big deal. because Im being a busybody right here , so yea LMAO.

and anyway again. Im not a love-hater currently. so if you read my oh-so-sweet msn nick, dont confuse yourself . and yeah, Im only one if Im, yeah you know lah. lmao.

whered you go ? I miss you.

oh gosh. I thought I would die of rotting at home ( not literally of course).

so I asked fafa to go out, not really go out, I used do-homework-2gtha shit, and right away.
so I did finish merely my emaths. then met up with love.
went to punggol end.
nothing much really
but at least today didnt turn out to be like what I thought it would be.

cheers

mark today's date.

lets meet at the other side of the world and never separare.

I will lay next to yoy in a hundred years. till that day arrives, live ur life peacefully.

you're my sea of life.

cheers. just trashing around.

ugh.

finally.

Im not the type who says 'I told you so' .

im more than a bird or a plane.

look. theres a bird flying... SHOOT BANG BANG.

oh. what the fuck's this. HIM?? merepek ah. change change.

now. this is way better. welcome 2 detroit. new song of his. check it out. HES SOOO CUTEE.

agh. 12:27. an hour more to go.

"this time Im sorry" . SING ALONG YO.

byee..

for once in my life, I was extremely dead-beat yesterday.

start the day at sentosa. then went to dhobby,
went home.
then went out again to watch 'wolf creek'
it was sooo boring can,
definitely a waste of money.

Im so not going to jc. look at my bro.
hes back,the earliest,at like 9pm??
yeah. aint no way.

so heres the plan for next week :
a so-called date. bugis. either jamming or watching big mumma. - . another at-the-beach day . BINTAN. homework-doing day.

final destination on thurs anyone ?

Im staying at home today. Im pennyless. and I mean literally.



yeah. end the day at dhobby ghout


obviously I didnt play. but still bring it on people.

the so-called king if y'll wonder.




pictures of adorable lil princess.


hailey was taking photo of the so-called king.
dionnes was either enjoying the view , or looking at those two cucumber-head hugging. (they're aint they? I dont know. LOL)

focus on whats behind her. LOL. nah. shes cute aint she.


aint they gorgeous? . and for your ifo : THEY DIDNT POSE. its a secretly-taken photo.


yeah. thats cable car. the thought of being in it was exhilirating, but when you're in it. its freakingly humid.

I wonder why my cher never, and I mean really never and not didnt, call me everytime Im absent. she calls everyone who didnt go school earky in the morning. but she never does so to me. bright side : I dont have to worry myselfy picking up her calls early in the morning, if I wake up early then whats the point on being absent, and looking for any grandmother-ass-story to tell her . very very bad side : she doesnt care about me. LOL. just hope that she does, I dont care how much.

so. I spent today by watching tv programmes. aite. there's this movie called, erm.. wait2.. the brooke what story. its about a girl whos got into an accident when she's 11, and ironically, shes still alive, but not kicking as shes paralyze. who I envy most is her mom, yeah I dont care about her . her mom spent every single hours in every single days standing by her side. the paralyzed kiddo's, like every single whatever-you-categorized-this-movie-in movies, very very good in her studies. her mom was there when she got her 1st kiss -my mom would kill me if she's done so- , when she had her job interview and all that. 1st ten minutes of the movie, I started crying already. see how nice the movie is.

' happy's a choice. when some fucked up bastards fuck you. its your choice to get over it or being fucked ". QUOTED

a-week holiday's here. and its gon feel either like forever or never. yeah.

cheerios ~

hey .. and so. ..went to school, like DUH. lessons before recess were so not enjoyable.
I was freakingly sleepy, everyone was. even my seatmate didnt talk, at all.
anyway, got a 'to kill amockingbird' book from english cher. ya know, the racist book.
yeah, I have yet to finish reading ' the year of yes'.then I ll move on.
nothing beats romance story, nothing beats the fun of reading those foolish stuffs.
read in a book. " waking up in the morning without someone to love is freakingly depressing".
OH IS IT. there are more to life than just loving someone and being loved. Im certain there are heaps more.

agh. march holiday. so here is my plan for next week
. study POA ( ya know I gotta pass my the vey next test, I HAVE TO)
. study my pathetic SCIENCE ( yeah that includes chem and phy. yeah.. any free tutoring?? )
. watch movies ( final destination or big mumma. any companion ??)
. shopping ( like DUH. but I do that like, every week? )
. read more books . ( I have yet to finish reading 2 books )

I dont know whether I love or dislike mother tongue's classes.
take for example. today. I was like staring at the whiteboard, yeah I know Im supposed to listen to bachtiar, but agh, no mood ah. then out of nowhere . bachtiar shouted my name, asking me to answer some stupid ass question. and hell you, It happens like, every lessons?. yeah. and dont know why. Im starting to love debating. the way they stare at you in awe and when I've finished they will go like ' woahhh'ing. and my cher will go like ' bagus' . thats pretty fun . LOL. but I dont wanna get involve in any competition.

lots of homeworks. aghh.. I just getting very very exhilirated of.. I dont know what. Life perhaps. just couldnt wait for tomorrow to come. and rest assured cher, I will come tomorrow. change your impression of lupita-is-a-vain-one-now to somestuff like lupita-is-the-one. LOL.

and I aint going to let any bummer to take away this tomorrow-is-gon-be-a-fun-day excitement. think twice when ure gon do so as its useless. I value life. I think pretty of everybody and myself, so aint no way ure gon bring me down mate. just sit back and watch your life goes on, while I live mine =)

ATTENTION TO ALL FUCKING READERS
the previous post was about the GODDAMN KHAIRUL ALIFFI, OR AFFIFI OR WHTEVR FUCKING FIFI.

the fucking khairul who sprayed water on me after lit class.
the cibai khairul who always calling me names everytime he sees me
the muthafucking khairul who always disturb everyone he sees.
the bloody khairul who winked at every girls he stare at.
the sucky khairul who's called home during camp.
the trashy little shit khairul whom I yelled at.
the moronic khairul who was in 2EE.

if you aint that I-hate Khairul, dont bitch.

whatever impression I made, just dont bitch about the shit.

there are many more important things than to hear you speak
get it khairul??
just dont speak. just go farr farr away from me.
idiotic piece of shyt.
so you see, the next time you fuck me
Im so gonna FUCK you too.
so just. agh. BE GONE.

so I started my day by yelling at this person,
whom I wanted to yell at since ages ago.
and furthermore, I just couldnt take it no more,
I cant yell in my room or nowhere else,
so why dont just take it ALL on him.
haha, pathetic khairul, but who asked him to be so fuckingly irritating?
yeah. you asked for it anyway.

so im diqualified for the debate thingy. like I care.
Im getting the hang of A maths and E.
the advantages of asking chers :
1. u look like a good girl in their eyes ( which I certainly am)
2. you have no shit that you doubt about .
so Im getting a tiny weeny about POA and so on.
just wait cheah. sit back.

agh. YES, I am so going to sentosa this saturday
with hailey n dionne.
muahahaha.

tag board's back as agnes requested so . hah.

love , everyone ~

I LOVE POA can ??
hah. its just a way to console myself.
but seriously, POA was owwkayyy than previous days. much okay.
just wait and see cher.

I's supposed to go to whatever debate.
but didnt. haha. see what would happen to me tomorrow.

I LOVE MY CLASS' GIRLS. X)

I aint no BIMBO.
and I will be one as soon as I am as tall as korrapong (1.90 m).
okay, so I flunked my POA. and its not a very big deal.
and Im not 'used to' good in maths.
let me get one thing straight.
I NEVER PASS MY SCIENCE. once, and it was only by one pathetic mark.
I aint interested in it anyway. blah.
but Im telling you now. I will work my butt of, burn the midnight, just to get the hang of POA.
just see and watch.

so today, in the morning. went to my bro's school to deliver some stuff.
I waited for like 20 mins. 7.o5, he finally showed up after all the cursing I made.
took taxi to school.
nothing much.

I failed 2 pathetic subjects.
double P. phy and POA.
watch , watch, and watch. ARGH.

today was FUN.
before I start elaborating today's stuff, thanks to joanne, she called me like 25 time or so.

so met up with fafa at serangoon mrt. then off to ps to meet dionne n hailey.
Hailey's so prrewwtyy CAN? and dionne. oh gosh, she is so gorgeous luh.
and there I was, dressing up like some sort of homeless kid.
but who cares haha.
then walked to far east. reached, and started getting busy.
I got no more cash left. and inside my atm cars is like 1o bucks? yeah.
but had no qualms about it though.
then after we've done. we went home, like duh.

then on the way home, there were like lots of couples.
ARGH. they kissed n hugged like nobody's business.
reasons why I hate seeing couples :
1. jealousy.
2. simply jealousy actually HAHAHA.
okay, so its my fault LOL.
just strike that off.

I needa do my english homework now.

ugh. Im pennyless.

okay. these people are not so bad after all.
some of them're so sweet
its like ' so hot ah stand here, stand under shades lah'
so nice of them aint it? I KNOW.

then then. there's this guy whom I asked to donate.
' I just came back from flagging * while walking away, but still looking at me*'
'oh okay. haha. sorry, thanks nyway. haf a nice day." ugh. I was so polite right. I KNOW XD
1 metre away from my place ' GUD LUCK *while smiling' he shouted.
so nice can HAH.

then there's this woman. SHE'S SO FREAKINGLY GENEROUS LUH de.
she donated $10. like WUOW.
I mean. yea. I've ever done so, but I was dumb okay.
and she was like. gave it with all her heart.

then then right. Dionne asked some guys to donate.
then they were like putting their hands into their pockets like they going to give like that
but in the end they didnt.
here comes the funny part, dioone made her fist. then one of them looked back, and laughed at dionne. HAH.

then some people, just walked away W/O smiling or just simply raising up their hands.
I mean. I could understand if you're listening to mp3 or something.
but HELLO. dont you know some manners.
*shake head
then some people just avoided me like as if Im some kind of plague or something.

overall review : FUN eventhough its tiring.

DA GIRL. hah. the first an hour of begging.
I was still so excited.


YEAH YEAH. my can. its 1/4 filled okay.


THREE more mins to 14 hrs, and thats it Im done BEGGING.
XD


the view from the 7th floor.
accompanied kong deliver some stuff.

chocolate prata. or prata chocolate?.
tempted?? I am not.
the chocolate tasted like banana. EUW !


yeah. my messy room. you have not seen the worst of it yet. hah.

did nothing much today
went in and out of my room.
I 's supposed to go to punggol beach today, but to some disturbance
I did not. so yea.
I was rotting at home, while everyone's ass was at school.
then FINALLY hailey asked me to accompany her out
she's freaking funny can?
hah. the in-da-club guy, fucker and all that.
woah damn syok luh.

flagging tomorrow.
anyone please DONATE !
dont be so stingy luh.

cheers~

ugh. guess what.
yesterday I saw him, with a red-shirt girl.
and couple of friends.
I mean, its isnt any of my business of who he's with.
but its just that
there is this fucking lil thing thats piercing me inside.
ARGH.nevermind.

anyway, I was damn sleepy today. and I mean extremely sleepy.
during phy lesson, hailey was talking to me, and I was like, closing my eyes while replying her.
I regain my consciousness during maths lesson. hah
then went to heartland and all that. nothing much.

ah yea, anyway. I aint gon pay that $600 for just using ur pathetic name.

and Im not scared of you dog, you wanna confront me. go ahead and do so. what are you anyway? hah. nothing more than a piece of shit.

ugh I'm so bored.
everyone's in school right now. I should have woke up earlier. TSK.

ugh. I hate talking about love as much as I hate running.
it makes my blood boils.
and I dont know since when I've become a valentine-hater.
I used to get very excited everytime valentine comes.

and I hate it goddamn much reading my friends' nick that's so sweety-pweety-honey-bunch-sugar-plump-fuck-u .I mean whats up with teens nowadays. read newspapers? some dumbfucks actually recorded themselves having sex. maybe I wont give a damn, if its paris hilton or something. you know celebrities love making sensasion. but hell you, its teenagers like you and me. pretty dumb isnt it. and they actually spreading that fucking video. YUCK. its just simply gross. and whats up with the I-love-you-only-you-can-make-me-happy and all that. HUH?? I simply hate it muthafucking loads.

liek a friend of mine. a month ago.
guess whats her nick. sumthing that sounds like Iloveu, u made my life colorful
now whats hers : I hate u fuckers. you made my life turn upside-down.
freaking hillarious huh?

think about it people.
and please please. dont talk to me about love.